ichi, ni, san

(FYI: that's 1-2-3 in japanese n00bs XD)

the end of the 2nd trimester is coming up FAST. next friday is gonna be the start of the final trimester, and i cannot express the immediate fear that strikes me when i say that. -shudder- seriously, since when was high school THIS frightening? yeah, that's right, i'm still in high school. whodathunk it?

i have two finals coming up next friday as well...and it's on that day that i have to turn in the list of classes that i wish to take next year. i have to earn drama AND FOOKING MUSIC CREDIT TO GRADUATE. i know i have another year to do so, but it's better to do that earlier than later.

i'm hoping to get photography as an elective last year. it's stupid that i didn't get in. :\

and i'm praying that i make the right decision in deciding to be in honors english next year. i've never been in an honors class before, but if i want to do something relating to writing in college, an honors class will look very promising on an application, now won't it?

speaking of english and writing, fanfiction has been going at a steady pace over the course of these past two weeks. i'm amazed in myself, actually. i didn't think that i'd take the time to settle down and type away like i used to...but i go to bed earlier than 3 AM now, which frightens me very much... XO

ah, well. not much i can do about it. i've come to the realization that i'm growing, and learning, and therefore life is bitching harder than ever. but life will continue. i just can't wait to leave the house, to tell you the truth. it's rather exciting when i think about it. i really just want to be able to live on my own and travel to different states as i please; have different job to PAY for said traveling would be nice...

(can you say JAMBA JUICE??)

mm. i'd like a jamba juice...but i think i'm gaining weight again so it technically wouldn't do me much good, now would it?

AMERICAN IDOL. watch it? hella. HELLA.

i said HELLA!!!!

dude, the girls this year suck BALLS. the guys, they're SO MUCH BETTER. i do not kid. david archuleta and david hernandez have my vote, lemme tell ya. the two are sexy stud muffins and their voices just don't compare to the others. i WAS rooting for that aussie dude...but his ego shot through the roof and he became an over confident ASSHOLE.

boy do i love simon and ryan seacrest. the two are secretly besties behind the scenes, i swear. (maybe even more...than that...OH SNAP)

and so i leave to listen to a kingdom hearts podcast that i listen to monthly. although it DOES BUG ME GREATLY that they have "news" on it that is obviously rumor...i hate it when that happens. :\ but i wrote a testimonial to them and i'm praying that it's going to be read. and if it isn't, well, that would suck. i spoke a lot about how much i loved axel and roxas and how kingdom hearts shaped my life for the better.

do i TOTALLY sound like some sort of maniacal person speaking to a guru for mental help? yeah. that's strange.

off i go to procrastinate...

LLAMA is MAH LUVAH <3

PANIC! ...at the disco

:D ah...i'm panicking.

cosplays getting a move on. i've learned quite a bit last week about sewing a such, and while my mockup isn't perfect i think it's good enough. and to think that i was yanking my hair out and pulling off allnighters studying up...in reality it's not that difficult.

over the next few weekends i'll be spending my time on the actual jacket. my pleather is gorgeous, have i mentioned this? it looks very easy to work with. can't imagine why i'd need a teflon foot to sew it. thank you spandexhouse. XO

now, that's not the topic of this blog, surprisingly. i've got something to confess. on the side, i'm a HUGE music geek. oh, yeah. believe that. panic! at the disco is having a concert in june that i'm planning on going to. the tickets haven't sold out and i'm trying to persuade my parents to let me go...i haven't told them SQUAT about it, though...

alright, my dad would totally say yes. by my mother, i dunno. she's that type of person that doesn't say anything until the day before. then she'll get mad and say "why didn't you tell me earlier?" psh...

i've been staring at ticketmaster for the past...what, hour now? i keep thinking that if i wait any longer the tickets will sell out...i'm scared, man. XO

off to listen to my history teacher lecture about Carnegie Hall and shit. <3

...anyone think that axel should be the uke in the relationship? i think so. mmm...

obama yo mama

grr. i'm so pissed right now. at my school, there's an AP history class and today they're going to a campaign being held in town for barack obama. it makes me so mad because OTHER people that AREN'T in AP called their parents who gave them permission to go! and when i called the lady who fills out all the permission slips said no because it's "not a school event". psh! IT'S A FUCKING EVENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA!!

I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO CHEER ON OBAMA! WHEN IN THE NATION WILL THERE EVER BE ANOTHER CAMPAIGN THAT I CAN ATTEND?? FOR A CANDIDATE THAT I ACTUALLY WANT TO WIN?? I'VE NEVER FELT THIS AROUSED BY A PRESIDENT RACE EVER!!

...aroused.

anyway, my math teacher was all for it and even talked to the lady, but she still said no. besides, the people were already halfway up to the bus that would take them to the obaminator so...psh. it's over. i'll have to sit here in my empty math class. seriously. NO ONE IS IN HERE BUT ME AND MY TEACHER. and it's creepy. thank god i have a computer or else i'd be totally dead from lack of interesting things to do...

i could be at the campaign, you know.

in short: i'm pissed. i'm missing the chance of a life time. thanks a lot, good for nothing responsible catholic school. XO

!~HARE HARE YUKAI~!

dadada dadada dadada...

hell ya. i've learned the hare hare yukai dance. http://youtube.com/watch?v=Z2HpAE-QcQA

for all you people that are unaware of the haruhi suzumiya dance, learn it. even if you're one of those people that can't dance or refuse to dance, this is me demanding that you learn. i can die happy knowing that i have accomplished it. <3

anyway, that's the highlight of my day. i lost some weight dancing to it for the past...oh...6 hours last night. seriously. i weighed in. i lost weight. i think it's because my dinner was only a piece of fish and spinach too...mm. bein' healthy is awesome. :)

i've gotta slim down just a bit so i can pull off my axel cosplay this year...actually it's femme axel. but i'll post pics of that later. i've still gotta put my jacket together and spike my wig. i'm waiting for my mid-winter break to come by so's i can slave myself to cosplay. mmhmm. that's right. i'm cool.

-dances to hare hare yukai- you know you love it. ;D

so i'm pretty much a n00b...

alright, so this is my first go at doing "diary entries" online. i mean, i journal and stuff on deviantart, but that place isn't very happy right now. my artwork has slowly been dying, i swear to god. XO not only that but my FANFICTION. oh, the WRITING AND MISERY. see, i've been banned from the computer for at LEAST 3 weeks now, but i'm slowly starting to come back to the usual schedule of typing until 3 AM. i know, i know. you guys on FF have probably heard this all before...

so lemme just say that right now i'm in the process of finishing the next chapter to sex is the question. i haven't ditched my readers nor do i hate them. i'm just being a douche. XO

in other news WHAT THE BUCK??? cosplayyyy??? i is a cosplay n00b! psh. i'm learning, though. i've been sacrificing my phone battery to go online in the middle of the night (school  nights mostly) to research how in the heck i'm supposed to do this and do that and pin this and pin that. i've even had to suffer through videos of little old ladies with new york accents and cat wallpaper in the background who teach me how to prepare a pattern...it's quite frightening.

but after about two weeks of non-stop research, i think i should be ready to go. my father ordered my wig from amphigory, the matrix coat pattern and the pleather fabric i need to put this little dealy together. right now, i won't say what i'm cosplaying...oh, boy. don't we all love a good secret? <3

well...if anyone reading this has also bothered to read my little known facts on fanfiction.net then you probably know this: i fear going in HOTTOPIC.

ever since i was little i'd run away. seriously. the place is ALL BLACK and there's people with ten thousand piercings!!

but now i've grown to get over that and walk by it without shuddering.

but i'm still creeped out beyond reason to go in there without a friend. i still haven't been in the store, BUT today i need to buy a pleather skirt for my costume...and hottopic is the only place that holds it. haha...funny how these things work out. what's worse: i don't want my parents going in there WITH me because...well...that's weird. ugh. why does the world have to spin this way?

if i can't find it in me to get over my hottopic-o-phobia, then i'll have to tell my dad to buy it off of ebay. he didn't want to last night because he said to go to hottopic first. BUT HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND...!!! -whines- the place really does scare me!

uh. what else...? some first post, ey? ah, i'll be back to edit. silly people are looking at my house right now...