Zen and Peace

got the great privilage of meeting his holiness the dalai lama today. won't go into immense detail, seeing as it's WAY past my bed time, so i'll just edit this post tomorrow.

in short: inspirational.

could it be i'm falling in LOVE?

possibly.

axel just happens to be that damn, fucking SEXY.

body wise.

personality wise: he's a dope. but that's just fine, you know.

afterall, dope is no longer whack. dopes are all IN! <3

<3 lyk, OMG, let's-go-SHOPPING <3

ok, so here's what i purchased at the con this year. i guess the fact that i've gone there a couple of times has shortened my urges to splurge...but i'm still spending money at an unhealthy rate.

-sora action figure $25
-soriku picture $10
-axel picture $10
-sora, kairi and riku kitten picture $5
-demyx X roxas picture $1 (it was a STEAL)
-akuroku picture autographed $5
-axel bookmark, cloud bookmark, itachi bookmark, riku bookmark $4 dollars
-altair picture autographed $10
-pink yaoi wristband $1
-blue yaoi wristband $1
-hello kitty sutffed animal $8.50
-kairi action figure $5 (it was yet ANOTHER STEAL)
-"Just a Nobody" black t-shirt with a blue nobody symbol and axel's chakram printed on the sleeve $17

and i'm pretty sure that was it.

the only nurishment that i had was pocky from a girl that i met last year. she gave me three sticks of chocolate almond crush and basically a whole bag of strawberry. that was basically it. for both days. and it SUCKED. majorly. but oh well. i lost weight THE UNHEALTHY WAY. SCREW ME!! =D (i still walked, yo so that was still healthy in a sense)

i was THIS close to buying a kingdom hearts yaoi doujinshi. but there wasn't anything AKUROKU in there, just sora riku. and they had red dots on them MEANING that they were 18+. still, my friend's friend was willing to get it for me, but i just wasn't interested. the guy/gay at the booth was checking me out, seriously. he cheered when i shook my ass by the booth. perve. adorable fat perve. <3

...DO A BARREL ROLL!!!!

OVAR 9000!!!!!

Sakura Con~Saturday and Sunday

kinda sad that i didn't go on friday. but education WANTS me. therefore i have to give in to textbooks and shit and LEARN rather than SPLURGE MY BUTT OFF in the marketplace.

sigh

first off, the arrangement this year was...awkward. the  registration lines were in a room that NO ONE could find rather than being where they were last year in front of the marketplace. i was like WTF?? and another thing...what happened to all the activities? i recall that last year there was LOADS to do and guests that MATTERED. i mean, yes, the japanese bands and such were cool, but it just didn't work with me. other than shopping and blistering the balls of my feet (and watching AMVs as well...) there really wasn't much to do.

and i suppose that the fact that my friend walking around and not wanting to do shit contributed to the "being held back by a leash" feeling.

introvert. what can i do?

being fem-axel was HELLA entertaining. i didn't think that so many people would think that the costume was acceptable because of the fem-ness. but i actually received many good compliments and praise about the costume and being in character. normally, SNJ anything doesn't really fly with cosplayers. but for some reason this axel in a mini-skirt cosplay worked rather nicely.

w00t

i'd estimate that i spent 70 dollars on crap. well, NOT CRAP. stuff. great stuff, as a matter of fact. pictures, mostly. i spent a lot of my time in the marketplace and dealer's room for those two days, and let me say that the artists' alley has improved greatly. last year there wasn't much to do in the artists' alley. this year all the table were in a nice little circle and i could visit the nice dealers. YAOI

i saw ramy there. you know ramy, from deviantart? yes. he was there. and his girlfriend...i believe it was his girlfriend, since they have the same art style and he mentions her a lot on deviantart.

he is win.

and jesus was there. with a flower. so were a lot of other organization members that were prancing around and stalking people. i was stalked quite a bit and glomped and tackled and yelled at and photographed...BECAUSE I WAS WEARING A FREAKIN' SKIRT!!! XDD

i'll update this later HOPEFULLY with picture attached. you had to be there to believe everything that went on. <3

again with the PIANOS

epic. that pretty much sums up the kingdom hearts soundtrack. pretty much...

alrighty, so yoko shimomura recently released her new CD titled Drammatica which includes KH as well as FF music. while i've yet to purchase the CD, the three full songs that i've downloaded obviously prove that it's HELLA EPIC. therefore, it is a must buy. therefore, i will lose LOADS OF CASH. therefore, i will cry, but it will be out of happiness.

PSH.

both can be found at kh-vids.net on their most recent post. if you don't get there quick, the post might DISAPPEAR.

seriously though..."The Other Promise" as well as "The 13th Anthology" make my heart go bump bump. i can LITERALLY feel the pressure, i kid you not.

i can really picture "The 13th Anthology" playing in disneyland in some parade, for some hella awkward reason. but whatever. it's just that epic. because disneyland is EPIC.

I LOVE THE WORD EPIC.

EPICCCCCCCCC.

reason WHY it is so epic, is because of how the song builds up. you know, the middle is the climax and yadda yadda yadda. starts off nice and slow with the original "Organization XIII" theme song from KHII, and later it becomes more upbeat with "The 13th Struggle". i guess that sort of pertains to the story of a nobody, to be AWFULLY CHEESY.

you know, they start off totally mindless (assuming that all nobodies are born into the world as roxas was during the final mix cutscene with xemnas) and slowly begin to realize that they are empty and that they have something to fight for (referring to the upbeat part of the song here).

and from there the song slows, i guess recalling the loss that the order had to undergo, what with losing sora, losing roxas and falling apart due to their traitors.

ANDDDDD...it picks back up, showing how the remaining members continue to fight to be their own person.

ANNNNDDDDDDDDD...it once again slows and transitions into this TOTALLY AWESOME new tune. i can't describe the tune, really. (if not--AT ALL). you'll need to download it to understand.

finally, "Organization XIII" is played slowly at the last few seconds of the song to show that, well...they all "died". i say they just faded. really. WHO IN THE HELL GETS RID OF A CULT THAT WAY?

nomura would be asking--no--BEGGING for death should he choose NOT to bring the organization back.

i love those damn nobodies too damn much.

damn.

EVERYBODY GETS HUMPBACK WHALES...!!

:O

LAWL

I LAWLED.

GUFFAW, GUFFAW, GUFFAW

DANE COOK IS NOT ONLY SEXY, BUT HYSTERICAL. MARRY ME. MARRY ME NAO.

america IS DEAF

david...hernandez...was eliminated.

and america allowed a freakin' BANSHEE back into the competition.

...WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO STARE AT DURING THE SHOW NOW?? NO ONE ELSE IS AS SEXY AS HE IS.

psh. seriously. america needs one huge hearing aid and a huge pair of glasses attached to it. we are officially DEAF AND BLIND, yo. DEAF AND BLIND.

peace out.

god i hate relatives

actually there's only one that i hate. and that would be my aunt. a couple of years ago, for a reason i will not mention, she said that she would slap my face and that she wouldn't give a damn about who said what about it. therefore, she is a bitch.

sorry. she is my aunt through blood, but not through "heart", for lack of better word.

and today the subject was brought up during dinner. suddenly my mother decides to be hella emo and fucking emotional. then she tells me that she thinks what i said was wrong. hell-no.

my dad understands me and told her that i'm entitled to my opinion. yes, i said. yes you bet your ass i am. but she doesn't understand that. according to god and her, that's wrong that i hate her. HATE IS NOT A DAMN FUCKING BAD WORD.

and that's my opinion.

my aunt deserves to be shunned by me. thanks for ruining my night, aunty. really. don't you wish you slapped me when you had the chance? I BET YOU FUCKING DID, RIGHT? 'cause you don't love me either! so i've got no love for ya.

tough. fucking. luck.

MY FUCKING OPINIONS ARE NOT ACCEPTED ANYWHERE.

I MIGHT AS WELL SLAP DUCT TAPE ON MY MOUTH FOR LIFE.