so i'm pretty much a n00b...

alright, so this is my first go at doing "diary entries" online. i mean, i journal and stuff on deviantart, but that place isn't very happy right now. my artwork has slowly been dying, i swear to god. XO not only that but my FANFICTION. oh, the WRITING AND MISERY. see, i've been banned from the computer for at LEAST 3 weeks now, but i'm slowly starting to come back to the usual schedule of typing until 3 AM. i know, i know. you guys on FF have probably heard this all before...

so lemme just say that right now i'm in the process of finishing the next chapter to sex is the question. i haven't ditched my readers nor do i hate them. i'm just being a douche. XO

in other news WHAT THE BUCK??? cosplayyyy??? i is a cosplay n00b! psh. i'm learning, though. i've been sacrificing my phone battery to go online in the middle of the night (school  nights mostly) to research how in the heck i'm supposed to do this and do that and pin this and pin that. i've even had to suffer through videos of little old ladies with new york accents and cat wallpaper in the background who teach me how to prepare a pattern...it's quite frightening.

but after about two weeks of non-stop research, i think i should be ready to go. my father ordered my wig from amphigory, the matrix coat pattern and the pleather fabric i need to put this little dealy together. right now, i won't say what i'm cosplaying...oh, boy. don't we all love a good secret? <3

well...if anyone reading this has also bothered to read my little known facts on fanfiction.net then you probably know this: i fear going in HOTTOPIC.

ever since i was little i'd run away. seriously. the place is ALL BLACK and there's people with ten thousand piercings!!

but now i've grown to get over that and walk by it without shuddering.

but i'm still creeped out beyond reason to go in there without a friend. i still haven't been in the store, BUT today i need to buy a pleather skirt for my costume...and hottopic is the only place that holds it. haha...funny how these things work out. what's worse: i don't want my parents going in there WITH me because...well...that's weird. ugh. why does the world have to spin this way?

if i can't find it in me to get over my hottopic-o-phobia, then i'll have to tell my dad to buy it off of ebay. he didn't want to last night because he said to go to hottopic first. BUT HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND...!!! -whines- the place really does scare me!

uh. what else...? some first post, ey? ah, i'll be back to edit. silly people are looking at my house right now...