he's gonna come back as a fuckin' FICUS

finals were today, and they were surprisingly VERY easy. english and history finals, actually. two difficult classes. but not the world's MOST difficult. and i have this joyous feeling welling up inside me that telling me that i've passed both. and next trimester, i have math, japanese and chemistry finals. yeah. how uncool is that?

i dunno. i feel bipolar. i think i'm bipolar. or i'm running low on hormones. my cerabelum hurts.

watched "the other boleyn girl" today with mah girls. twas INSANELY epic. i can't remember the last time i watched a movie that incoorperated so much sex and be-heading to the millionth degree. it was the kind of romantic tragedy that made me grip my face and peek through the spaces in my fingers. i guess that makes me a stupid movie whore. and i'm suprised that i understood the characters' language. they always said this prayer to the Lord each time they were about to die.

^ i suppose the shrunken text does nothing to hide a spoiler

erm...yeah. it was epic. and the dude that played jude in "across the universe" was in it. and he's always in the new movie "21" apparently. he's one sexy muffin. him and the eric guy that played henry the 8th. yes i refuse to use roman numerals. freakin' royalty and monarchies...

dane cook. he is also sexy. to the millionth degree (i love that degree to the millionth degree, yo). i just watched many of his videos from his DVD on youtube and he speaks the truth quite often. oh, yeah. him and atheists. loved it. very clever.

-does tree impersonation-

i'm bipolar.

AH

EDIT: ya, ok, so who here watches soap operas? well, me, being the ever sud filled girl that i am, likes to drown myself in them. but i'm not talking about american soap operas, lord no. they suck majorly. i go for the asian soap operas. and i'm talking about one in particular that i'm absolutely IN LOVE WITH.

so there are these two characters that fall in love in part one which occured...oh...about three years ago. three years ahead, the second part came out and the two are engaged. later, the girl finds out that she has cancer of the...stomach i believe. anyway, their story develops and they go through all this struggle and hardship. and through all that destress they speak words to each other that are so sappy that they tug at your heart strings and all your internal organs at the same time.

well, after about a year of watching this show, finally the girl decides that her therapy isn't working and she decides to take her husband to the beach where they first met. he tells her, once they get there, that he wants to leave within a day or two, but she insists and says that she'd rather stay there until she dies, but of course she doesn't tell him that she wants to die there. well, after some time, they sit on the beach as the sun is going down and the waves are crashing and such. she tells him to keep singing even after she dies. he doesn't quite understand so she asks him to play her a song on his guitar, which he does after some moments of sniffling and thinking of the perfect song.

well, certainly the song gripped and clawed at me to begin with...but it was when she started to reminise on her earlier years with him from the moment she met him to the moment she told him that she was dying that really made me fall apart. you could tell in her eyes that she was falling weaker and weaker and i have to say that the director and the editors did a fantastic job creating a bright, heavenly aura around the footage. oh, if only it were up on youtube i'd provide the link...

anyway, for about ten minutes this little video montage of memories played through until she rested her head on his shoulder and eventually died. slowly. and then a video played after he said her name quietly and it showed her running in a white dress through the woods, laughing and healthy while calling out his name like she was playing with him. she peeked around some of the trees and faced the shoreline which was blurred by a bright, white light. she extended her arms to the side like she was accepting the light and after a minute she ran toward it and it took her in.

the episode ended with her husband back on earth--holding her body bridal style while walking toward the waves. he eventually fell to his knees while still holding her and let the waves crash against him.

it was...extremely inspiring. i cried. like i was really crying. and i'm NOT just saying that. do not think me a liar. my eyes are puffy and red and everything as i type this.

just thought that that would explain my bipolor-ness a whole lot more.